Hey all, hope you’ve had a great two weeks (I’m bad with this blogging thing). Since we last spoke, I’ve finished my 12 week internship, packed my room, driven from Chicago to Philly to Miami, and cut my hair. There’s probably a bit of debauchery mixed in those days, but with or without it, it’s been a lot.
In that time I’ve been able to really reflect on my experience in Corporate America and have come to a solid conclusion: “I need people”. The main feedback I got from the various people I worked with was to talk more. They wanted me to share my insights, keep them updated on my progress, and be more proactive about building connections. Fair and necessary feedback. Everyone got that I was introverted, but still wanted to see me “come out of my shell”, which is definitely a great thing to know, but at the end of the day, the major issue is my conclusion: “I need people”.
I am most certainly introverted: I can spend ridiculous amounts of time by myself and perform like there’s no one else on earth almost to psychopathic levels. But that doesn’t mean I’m anti-social. I like chatting with people and hearing different experiences and perspectives has helped me become a much more well-rounded person. But I need people.
It was really hard for me as a newcomer to the corporate environment to build 100% earnest connections because there were a lot of people who I didn’t feel like I could connect to. They felt distant, guarded, hyper-absorbed in work, or other things. Not much more than hellos. And as someone who does his best work with people he trusts completely, this is less than ideal. I need people who feel like people that aren’t hidden behind a professional mask. We’re on the same team…your game face is for the opponent and the visitors.
At the same time, I understand that getting too personal with “business partners” can be a recipe for disaster in the event that something comes up…but that’s why a smaller company would be a better way to go. A mixture of close proximity to the customer base along with limited tiers of tenure and ownership is more of an ideal fit for me. It may not be where the money is, but it’s definitely where my heart and mind are.
At the end of the day, now that I’m finished with my internship, it’s about time to finish up college and finalize my next direction: I’m bout this music and film, and I’m not stopping till I get it.
Hope that wasn’t too much of a ramble. I consider most posts brain dumps, but be sure to give me feedback. I’m always looking to get bettter,